It is my birthday’s eve today. I am eagerly awaiting turning 23 to see what happens in the next year, however, firstly I am wanting to look back on my 22nd year and reflect on what I have done, and most importantly, how far I have come in this past year!
This past year has been a huge struggle for me, mainly due to the fact I had developed severe depression and spent a lot of my year denying this fact and trying to run away from my problems. Whilst I was 22 I found the courage to tell my parents, friends and partner that I was suffering and needed help, as well as, going to counseling as well as seeking medical help for this.
It was a huge step for me to ask for help, and more importantly, I have accepted the fact that asking for help is not a sign of weakness. It is a sign of courage and bravery to accept the fact that you need someone to lean on, ask for advise or someone to talk to about anything you’re going through. I’m very proud of this fact!
I have said it before, but I will say it again that I am so proud of my humble abode. I have really made this flat my home in the past 6 months, I have settled in and I cannot imagine moving home and living with my parents, even though I love them more than anything, I just adore living by myself. Granted, it took me a while to love it. I can’t lie to myself, I hated it this time last year, but I have really settled into it and I can’t wait to see where I end up in the next year, if that means I am still in this flat or somewhere else, who knows?! But I am excited to find out!
This past year has been a series of ups and downs, and some of the main relationships that have been affected by this have been my friendships. This past year has been a struggle to regain friendships that had been pushed aside, by myself, granted, but I have been pushing to gain more from my everyday life, including spending more time with my friends rather than isolating myself.
In my 23rd year I am going to strive to continue to rebuild my friendships and spend more time with the people that are most important to me.
Over the past year me and my boyfriend have been through a lot together, we have had major ups and incredible downs by each others side and, in all honesty, I can’t see myself being with anyone else right now. He is my best friend, the love of my life and the person who I have the most laughter with. He isn’t perfect, and nor am I, but who is? For right now, me and him are pretty perfect together.
This past year has been an incredible test for us both, and looking back to my birthday last year to now I am surprised we actually made it through and are, if possible, more in love than we were before. I don’t know how I would have made it through this past year without him. He means an awful lot to me, and I hope one day he will realize just how much without me having to tell him all the time.
So there we have it, some moments in my 22nd year of life that I am proud of, as well as, some things I really don’t want to lose sight of in the future.